Peanut Butter cookies

My adult son used to work in an office of about 6-7 other people.  They worked in one room, closely together and it was a casual atmosphere because it was stressful work. 

One way for me to see my son more often was to visit him at the office.  I could walk in and be greeted with smiles by everyone.

I don’t like peanut butter, except in a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.  I made peanut butter cookies one time and (for some unknown reason) I took a bite to taste them.  Yuck!

I took them into their office.  I got my hugs, gave them the cookies, said, “They are awful” and headed out the door so they could get back to work. 

Later that day, my son called to tell me that they weren’t awful, that they loved the cookies.  I reminded him that they I didn’t like peanut butter cookies. 

… not a funny little story but one that warms my heart to think about. 
I wish you many thoughts that warms your heart.  

When I was a kid I needed ouchless ….

I shouldn’t admit this but for the sake of this bit, here goes ….

When I was a kid they didn’t have the ouchless band-aids yet.  I never let my mom rip my band-aid off and I never took it off myself. If my mom tried to take it off I would cry bloody murder, as though she was coming towards me with a machete.

Yes, I was one of those kids that would have a dangling band-aid rather than the momentary not-quite pain of ripping it off.  At times I would cut the dangling parts off.  I’d wind up with the tiniest little bit of band-aid still attached. 

Who knows where that fear of ripping it off came from.  In the summer I now have all sorts of band-aid less wounds when I’m out in the mountains roughing it. Yet, when I hear the term, “Just rip the band-aid off”, yikes do I empathize. 

I’m over 60 yrs old and well …. still use band-aids until I’m sure I don’t need it anymore.  The other day I cut myself with a knife.  It wasn’t a bad cut.  It looked and felt like a paper cut.  My point is that in that sliver of cut there is a teeny-tiny flap of skin that catches on fabric and THAT is the part that hurts.  It’s ok.  I roll my eyes at myself sometimes too.  Ok, a lot.

Yesterday I thought was the last day of having a band-aid on the cut. Last night I …. “Ouch” …. caught that bit of skin on my clothes.  I looked at my hand and thought, “How can that be”?  I see my band-aid,  I then realized that I had the band-aid on the wrong finger.   

Argh!  Ugh!  Thank goodness I can laugh at myself, and often!  

Memories of holidays past … 1 of ?

One year for Christmas I was giving my 12 year old son my acoustic guitar, which my father gave to me when I was 12 years old.  

A guitar is a pretty large present to wrap so I decided to create a scavenger hunt of sorts.  I had a large box (filled with newspapers for weight).  That box had a note where to find his gift.  

For weeks he would ask, “What’s in the box?” and I’d say,  “It’s just newspaper”.  I had fun with it but unfortunately on Christmas morning when he opened the box, he was not amused.  He was although thrilled to get the guitar.   

One other Christmas I created a scavenger hunt; he didn’t like that either.

Neither him nor I could play that guitar.  We could do little bits but couldn’t grasp it, even with lessons.  We can both sing though.  Years later, he gave his younger brother the guitar.  His younger brother self-taught himself to play the acoustic; bass and electric guitar but has trouble carrying a tune when he sings.  We all have our gifts and talents. 

Hosting my First Thanksgiving and then some …

This morning I was thinking about Thanksgivings of my past. Thank goodness our challenges are funnier in hind-sight.

The first couple of years that my husband and I were married, we had Thanksgiving with either my parents or his. Then I wanted to host Thanksgiving at our house. Our first born was a little guy so this was a very long time ago. I was excited and had my butterball turkey ready to go. These bigger turkeys cook for hours anyway but as the day progressed into evening and the turkey still wasn’t done, we began to believe that the oven was broken.

At closer look, I had cleaned the knobs on the stove and replaced them upside down. The turkey had been in a 250 degree oven for almost 10 hours. Ugh my first Thanksgiving feast felt like a disaster. Many years later. My eldest son and his fiancé were hosting their first Thanksgiving dinner. She was a bit defensive, emotional and … competitive.

She asked me to make the stuffing because by this time I had perfected stuffing and my boys loved my stuffing enough to brag about it. Over at their home, I was given a double box of stuffing and was asked to make one. Stuffing is stuffing right? It’s kind of hard to destroy boxed stuffing.

… or so I thought. My stuffing came out just as presumed that it would. My son’s fiancé made the second box of the double box of stuffing. She looked at mine and looked at hers and had a melt down. Hers looked like … baby poo.

I tried to reassure her that everyone’s first time hosting a Thanksgiving dinner, something doesn’t turn out right. And of course, these are the times that we reminisce and laugh a about for the rest of our lives. I am so grateful that we have these memories and can laught about them.

How much is left in that bottle?

It wasn’t about being thrifty or frugal, although I attempt to be. This was just what my mom did and well, I guess it was ingrained in me.

Here’s a true recount as an example …

My boys, their dad and I were at the dinner table. Someone other than me pointed out that the bottle of ketchup or salad dressing or … was empty. I bounce into action! Super Thrift Mom grabs the bottle. Just as I am approaching the sink they all call out, “NO, don’t add water”.

Yup, that’s what I did, I added a bit of water, shook up the bottle and presto … the bottle isn’t empty anymore.

Halloween Memories

I have so many wonderful Halloween memories of when my boys were young. Back then, we often used those hard plastic masks with tiny eye holes. It was difficult to see out of those masks. Back then, we it was always snowy on Halloween. Winder coats were under the costume so most of the costumes couldn’t be form fitting.

I made many of the costumes too. Football players, Ninjas, and when they were very little they were little devils because I could sew horns and such right onto a onesie. Those are the one I haven’t let go of yet. My boys are close to 40 yrs old and I still have those Halloween costumes in a tote, on a shelf.

Many years ago when I started on my journey of eating healthier foods and using more eco-friendly products, I stopped handing out candy. I now hand out party favors. I have kids of all ages who love coming year after year for these fun little toys. They are healthier and last longer than candy.

The Teal-Pumpkin project promotes handing out items to trick or treaters that are allergy free for the 30% of the kids who have food allergies.

Do I have to?

How many times as kids and do we hear our own kids saying, “Do I have to?” or “Why, do I have to …?” I don’t say it out loud but the same feeling still goes through my head as an adult. Although I don’t feel like a senior, I am and therefore, many of these things have gone through my head for (gulp) decades.

I don’t mind mowing but absolutely don’t like weeding. I have my own little ten minute tantrum swirling within myself. Often times when I’m done, I think to myself, “well that didn’t take too long”.

Sewing, ugh. My mother was a “dressmaker”. I say that with emphasis because when I say she was a seamstress, she gets a bit upset and says, “I was a dressmaker”. I don’t really understand the difference but then again … sewing with a machine stresses me a bit.

When we were young she would make some of our clothes and could whip them up pretty quick. When I was in the seventh grade we had HomeEc. In my sewing class we had to based a hem. Is that right? That’s what I remember, hand stitching a hem to make a hemmed flour sack towel. I didn’t do so well. There were several projects I didn’t do well at. Our final grade was going to be on making an apron. UGH! An apron, really?

I told my mom that if I didn’t do well on the apron that I wouldn’t pass the class. She was horrified. My parents were hard on us if we didn’t get decent grades as it was but to flunk a sewing class. My mom made a cute little apron complete with a pretty little decorative pocket. She told me to turn it in as my final project. My parents did not allow cutting corners or cheating … except for this one exception.

I handed the teacher my apron with a very prideful grin. She said, “You didn’t make this.” I didn’t say I did but I shrugged my shoulders and say, “Call me mom and ask her”.

Not long ago my favorite (work outside) jeans got holes in the knees. I put iron-on patches over the knees. The next time I wore them, kneeling on the ground weeding, the patches starting coming off. Ugh. I sewed them on (by hand). Over the next couple of wearings, the jeans ripped across the leg above and below the patch. Ugh again.

How many times as kids and do we hear our own kids saying, “Do I have to?” or “Why, do I have to …?” I don’t say it out loud but the same feeling still goes through my head as an adult. Although I don’t feel like a senior, I am and therefore, many of these things have gone through my head for (gulp) decades.

I don’t mind mowing but absolutely don’t like weeding. I have my own little ten minute tantrum swirling within myself. Often times when I’m done, I think to myself, “well that didn’t take too long”.

Sewing, ugh. My mother was a “dressmaker”. I say that with emphasis because when I say she was a seamstress, she gets a bit upset and says, “I was a dressmaker”. I don’t really understand the difference but then again … sewing with a machine stresses me a bit.

When we were young she would make some of our clothes and could whip them up pretty quick. When I was in the seventh grade we had HomeEc. In my sewing class we had to based a hem. Is that right? That’s what I remember, hand stitching a hem to make a hemmed flour sack towel. I didn’t do so well. There were several projects I didn’t do well at. Our final grade was going to be on making an apron. UGH! An apron, really?

I told my mom that if I didn’t do well on the apron that I wouldn’t pass the class. She was horrified. My parents were hard on us if we didn’t get decent grades as it was but to flunk a sewing class. My mom made a cute little apron complete with a pretty little decorative pocket. She told me to turn it in as my final project. My parents did not allow cutting corners or cheating … except for this one exception.

I handed the teacher my apron with a very prideful grin. She said, “You didn’t make this.” I didn’t say I did but I shrugged my shoulders and say, “Call me mom and ask her”.

Not long ago my favorite (work outside) jeans got holes in the knees. I put iron-on patches over the knees. The next time I wore them, kneeling on the ground weeding, the patches starting coming off. Ugh. I sewed them on (by hand). Over the next couple of wearings, the jeans ripped across the leg above and below the patch. Ugh again.

Weeding and sewing are the two things that I no longer say, “Do I have to?” I know I do sometimes but I don’t have to like it. … shaking my head and shrugging my shoulders.

When I was young … vitamin C

When I was young my mom made us eat oatmeal or cream-of-wheat in the winter time. I still don’t like the smell of either. My mom also made us take vitamin C every day. I had a tough time as a kid swallowing pill and well, actually I did until I was an adult.

For anyone who hasn’t swallowed a vitamin C tablet quickly, knows that bitter taste as they begin to dissolve in your mouth. For me, it was a common occurrence.

To flavor my hot cereal my mom would add brown sugar. As many people know, once the brown sugar starts getting hard, you have to scrape it or dig it out with a spoon. Often times, where you’ve scraped or dug in with the spoon, it turns white.

I can remember one time my mom put a big spoon of brown sugar in my hot cereal. I saw that white scraping in the brown sugar and began to sob. I was convinced that she crushed up a vitamin C tablet and tried to sneak it into my cereal.

In hind-sight, it would have been easier for me to take however I didn’t like the hot cereal anyway so it was like adding salt to my wounds.

Garage Sale Frenzy

Spring is almost here and so are garage sales.

One Saturday when I was a teenager my mom and I went on a garage sale frenzy. We drove up to one house where there were items all over the driveway, in neatly defined rows and the garage door was open. I must say however, that something felt odd about it.

We got out of the car and my mom said, “Hi” to the man by the garage. He said, “Can I help you?”. She told him, “No” that we were just looking. He then told us that he was cleaning out his garage and it was not a ‘garage sale’. UGH I was so embarrassed! Can you imagine as a teenager, the horror. Yikes! To this day, I make sure it’s a garage/yard sale before I get out of the vehicle.

Guard dogs? The mom dog

There was a time, many years ago when we had a small dog (terrier-chihuahua mix) and large labs. When the doorbell would ring the dogs would all bark like crazy. The small dog would jump up and hit the door at about 5 ft high. With the combination of barking dogs and the thump of the door being rammed, the person on the other side would have no idea how many beasts were ready to pounce on them.

We could see out the peep-hole that often times the person on the other side was wide-eyed and had backed up, 10 ft from the door. What they didn’t know was that the little dog was the biggest threat. She wasn’t as loveable as the large dogs.

One time, a cable person came to install or adjust something (I really can’t remember). As he was tinkering behind the TV, this little dog sat and watched his every move. He asked me if she was going to bite him and I said, “I don’t know, I suggest no sudden moves”. What a great little guard dog she was. I was sure she wouldn’t bite him and would have felt awful if she did. What I did know was that there was no way he was going to get to close to me.

When this little dog was younger she wasn’t very friendly with strangers and did not like kids running and yelling. She was the second mom in the house. When my youngest son would run through the house, she would nip at his ankles to tell him to slow down.

She was also the boss of the labs. When they’d do something she didn’t want them doing (like playing too rough), she would nip their bottom lip (probably because at a quick jump that’s what she could reach). They would lay down and stop what they were doing.

When one of our labs had puppies, she wasn’t completely interested in attending to her pups like I believe most moms would. Our little dog again stepped in. Although she couldn’t feed them, she would be close by if they needed anything. She was very attentive to those nine puppies. At five weeks old, they were the same size as she was.

As she got older, she learned from the labs that the nicer you are, the more strangers will want to pet and give attention to you. Her name was Sugar, although Spice would have been more fitting. We had a cat named Spice that we had adopted as a kitten close to the time that we adopted Sugar as a sweet little ball of fluff.

A few things that I cringe thinking about

Keeping warm: When I was very young and we lived up in the mountains and it would be so cold in the winter mornings. I would often jump out of bed and sit over the heat vent with my night-gown over my legs so that the heat would blow up and keep me warm. One morning I felt something on my leg. A daddy-long-legs came out of the heat vent and was crawling up my leg. I never sat over that vent like that again.

Poop patrol: When my boys were young we had labs and one smaller dog. If the boys were going out to play in the back yard, they were to pick up the dog poop before they played. We did have shovels and pooper-scoopers yet one day my older boy came running in to tell me that his younger brother (who was 6-7 years old at the time) was picking up dog poop with his hands. We were all grossed out, except my younger boy.

Smells: When my boys were young, for some reason if my husband or youngest son smelled something gross, they would immediately say, “Ewe, smell this”. Myself and my oldest son continually looked at them like they were nuts, “If it’s so gross, why would I want to smell it”.

Wipes: About two years ago I was having surgery to remove a kidney stone that got stuck. I had to go to the bathroom one last time before surgery. The attending nurse told me to be sure to use the wipes and sanitize myself again after I was done, and before heading back to the room.

I was done on the toilet and saw a plastic container of wipes. As I reached for it and vaguely remember that it had the word sanitizing on it. I wiped myself and instantly I felt an incredible burning. I hit the call button for the nurse. She quickly gave me the soothing wipes that were in a drawer (really?).

I had used the disinfectant sanitizing wipes. I wouldn’t recommend that.

Fireflies – We’re never too old

In the mid-90’s I was working in Tennessee. I spent two-three weeks at a time there. One of the gals I worked with and her husband took me to dinner one evening. We went to the New Orlean’s Manor. It was daylight when we went in to the restaurant.

The sun had gone down by the time we came out. There was a yard right out front, across from the driveway. There were twinkling lights all over in the yard. I asked what the twinkling lights were.

Fireflies! OMG. I had never seen a firefly other than on tv. I ran out into them like I was 7 years old. I was in awe of them. I feel a twinkle in my heart and get warm fuzzies every time I think of them.

Selective Hearing

When my oldest boy was in the third or fourth grade I was increasingly becoming concerned about his hearing. It seemed that he often said, “What” or just didn’t hear me at all.

I asked the school nurse to schedule him for a hearing test. At the end of the day she had him tested, she asked me to come in and sit down to discuss the results. She told me that his hearing tested good and that he was simply ignoring me. What a relief, I think.

I was a paranoid mom, worrying that something would happen to my boys. To my defense, they were young at the time that John Walsh’s son was taken. We were all a bit scared.

I would tell my son over and over to wear a helmet when he was on the skateboard or bicycle; to watch for car; etc. Years later I was on the phone with him and he started yelling at his young step-brother to put a helmet on. Ha Ha Ha … he listened, heard me, he just chose what to let me know what he had heard.

Practical Jokes and more

I love fun, harmless practical jokes. When my kids were young we’d have impromptu hide and seek. Someone would hide in a closet. As soon as someone else realized we didn’t know where that person was, it was game-on! We often had to bring our little dog with us to hide because she was a tattle-tail. If the boys didn’t bring her with them, I could always count on her to help me find them. Unfortunately, my daughter-in-law hasn’t thought my adult son’s impromptu hiding is much fun.

We had a living room and a family room, with a dining room between them (in sort of an L shape). We had cable TV in each room and it just so happened that both of the remotes worked either TV. The boys would be watching TV in the family room and I would be here and there doing household whatever’s. I loved changing the channel they were watching, using the living room remote. I would only do it every few months so they would be taken completely off-guard.

They would look at each other perplexed at what happened. I would sometimes hide behind a chair or something so if they came to see if it was me, I’d be hiding. By the third channel change, they would catch on that it was me but it was so much fun.

These are just a couple … I’ll share more later.

I like what you like

I like food and I like to eat. I’ve been blessed with a high metabolism throughout my life so that I can eat and not have every calorie add a few pounds to my weight. I haven’t been as fortunate the last have of my 50’s but it hasn’t been too bad and I eat what many people refer to as rabbit food (plant-based) so there’s that.

When my chosen daughter was about 12 years old she liked to eat whatever I liked to eat. I would go to the fridge and what I wanted was gone. I don’t mind sharing my food (mostly) but I like to know certain things are there when I want them.

It got to the point that I’d start experimenting. I’d get odd foods and flavors hoping that she wouldn’t like them and therefore, it would just be mine. I could rarely find something she didn’t like (she’d eat most anything, just like me). I can remember how thrilled I was when I got blue cheese dressing one time and she didn’t like it. Woo-Hoo! It was like finding the holy grail. The only problem was that I really didn’t like it either. I did however get used to it.

Irresistible Rescues

Warning: This may start off a bit emotional. If you want to skip that part, go down to the fourth paragraph.

I love animals large and small, large like bears and lions; small like pet (domestic) rats. When I was young I wanted to be a veterinarian and even had the opportunity to begin an apprenticeship of sorts when I was 14 years old. I found that I couldn’t handle watching animals who had to be put down and I never returned.

We had a few pet rats when I was a kid. They were very friendly and sweet. They would cuddle and lick and never nip or bite. We had dogs and cats I loved them all. My weakness is the baby animals.

From the time I was a young adult, I always had rescues. My first as a young adult was a black lab pup that was found. A work colleague called and asked if I wanted it, knowing the answer of course. Unfortunately he died when he was only six months old. When my boys were very young my husband and I got a black lab. When he was about 4 years old he had a neurological issue and became vicious and eventually had to be put down.

When my boys were still pretty young we got a lab pup from a nice small kennel. She grew to be a large lab. This was my third lab. She was a beautiful yellow lab and almost white. Her AKC name was Accents of Ivory Jasmine.

I had never had a small dog and thought it would be nice. My husband went to the pound and found a half-chihuahua/half-terrier. We named her Sugar.

One day (while Sugar was still a pup) the boys and I went out garage sale-ing. My oldest boy needed a bathroom so we went to a former baby-sitter’s house. She was happy to see us and told my son to use the bathroom in her bedroom.

Only moments later my son was making all kinds of strange noises. He yelled for me to come and I bolted into the bathroom only to find a litter of kittens. The garage sale-ing stopped because we needed to go to the store and buy whatever our new kitten could possibly need. Her name was Spice. (Her name was Spice because I was starting a theme, not because I baked a lot).

Next we bred Jasmine (a one time thing and we gave away most of the pups to our friends). One of the pups had to be resuscitated shortly after birth. We kept her because her feet were huge and we knew she’d be a big girl. Thank goodness we kept her because she was developmentally challenged. She was such a sweet dog but much like Odie (of Garfield) and was like a 4 month old puppy her entire life. My husband named her Comet. Comet? After a ball of fire in the sky or a cleanser? Who knows. Obviously there was no respect for my pet-name theme.

Our next pet came to us, much like all the kids selling whatever. There was a sign above our door that read “Sucker” or “Softy”. Regardless it seems that we were the only ones that couldn’t see it. There was knock on the door one evening. There was a person with a kitten. I melted and my husband (standing behind me) said, “No” before this person even spoke. The person pleaded and said they were moving and that the mother cat was hit by a car and … oh my what a story. Who knows if it was true or not but my husband still said no. And me, well I don’t need a story.

The next morning, my husband left for work and within 15 minutes there was a knock on the door. It was the same person with the kitten again. I can’t even remember what was said, probably, “Please”. I, of course took the kitten. The boys went off to school and I went off to get kitty stuff. I’m not sure why I wasn’t at work that day but thank goodness.

When the boys got home from school I told them not to say anything to their dad when he got home. Ha! He walked in, the boys were standing there with grins as wide as their faces and he knew. He said, “You got the kitten didn’t you?” His name was Cinnamon.

Big brothers help

When my oldest boy was about 3 years old he became a big brother. He was a kind and gentle boy. He was also as helpful as can be.

His newly arrived little brother was only a few months old when I woke up one morning and went right into their room. My big boy was so proud and couldn’t wait to show me how much he helped me with his little bother.

I looked into the crib to find his little, baby brother covered head to toe in white Desitin. Anyone who has used Desitin knows the white stain that it leaves on skin for quite awhile.

The older we get…

Isn’t it amazing how regardless how old we are, our grown children don’t seem to age. My oldest by is getting close to 40 years old. That’s amazing to me because for many years I haven’t felt older than 35 years old. Over the last couple of years I see myself aging, I’m feeling more like … 45 years old now.

When I think of the age of my boys I’m truly amazed. Funnier yet (to me), when dreaming they are still little boys. When I see them, I still see my ‘boys’. It’s difficult to change the dialog to men, even though they’ve been men for a long time now.

When I see anyone close to the age of my boys, I think of them as kids. I wasn’t so appreciative of older adults calling me a kid when I was 30, 35 and 40 years old. I sure understand it now.

Questions in sleep mode

I don’t know how you are when you’re in sleep mode but for me … when I was younger (20’s – 30’s) when I slept, I slept pretty hard.

One day when my boys were young I fell asleep on the couch while they played. When I woke up, my youngest “O” had something purple in his mouth. I’m guessing he was around he was around five years old.

I asked him what was in his mouth and he showed me this little purple piece of plastic. Yikes! I told him not to put random things in his mouth and as most mom’s do, I probably ranted a bit about what goes into the mouth and what doesn’t. Ok for me, I probably ranted for longer than a bit but I was groggy so I’ll give myself the benefit of the doubt.

He told me he had asked me (while I was sleeping) if he could put it in his mouth and I said, “Yes”. Then we had another talk about how not to ask me questions while I’m sleeping.

A childs point of view

When I was young, I had an aunt that lived about 90 miles from us. We would go visit from time to time and occasionally I got to spend a week here and there with her during the summer.

Every night before bedtime, she would have a big bowl of ice cream over a chopped banana. This was one of my favorite things during my overnight visits.

I wound up moving almost a thousand miles away. Years later she downsized and moved to my hometown. About the time I was approaching 40 yrs old, I moved back so I was able to see her and spend more time with her again. Within a year of moving back, she passed. I bought her home from my cousin with everything in it (including a dog; a cat; and her grandson).

Soon after moving into the home, I opened one of the cupboards and saw a stack of bowls. They were the bowls that she used for ice cream and bananas when I was a kid. My heart was full of warm-fuzzies but I also had a laugh because those bowls were not nearly as big as I remember them being. In fact they weren’t big at all.